Monday, May 18, 2009








Last night my husband had the honor of being dunked into a big tank of nasty jello and water for our Awana kids. Each kid got to throw a ball for every five sections that they had said since January. Needless to say the kids were stoked to be able to finally get Bro. Ric! I think some of the adults were pretty stoked too!

The evening air was cold, the jello/water mess was freezing, and the kids were accurate. I had some mercy on my poor husband because he was, to say the least....miserable! Jesse didn't like it one bit...he cried the first time Ric went under. I don't know if it was because the kids all screamed or what, but he just fell apart. Shelby had been dying to throw a ball at her Daddy and to get him in. When she hit the target and he went in....she didn't like it too much either. She must be like her Momma and just have mercy oozing out of her:) Charlie and Addie loved it and thought it was so cool to not only hit the target but the outcome of hitting that target!!!

We stood and watched for a long time. Shelby was so quiet about it all and I wasn't sure what she was thinking. I found out this morning though! We were talking at breakfast about it with all the kids and how fun it was. Shelby just sat there and then she said...." Those teenagers cheated Mommy....they knocked Daddy in with their hands. They didn't throw the ball....they cheated!" You see, the seniors in our youth group were standing behind the tank and any time Ric wasn't looking they would run by and hit the button from the backside to dunk him. They thought it was hilarious! Shelby....not so much. She was really bothered that they were "cheating"! Even though it was all done in good fun, and my husband didn't mind the seniors doing it.....Shelby wasn't happy about the rules being broken.

I realized a couple of things this morning from her...that first, little eyes are watching. Yes, our children watch us and so do our peers. They see how we react when things are going great and when things are falling apart around us. They see how we treat one another and how we speak. They hear the words that come out of our mouths....but more importantly than hearing the words, they see our actions. They watch where we go, what we listen to, what we watch on TV, and yes...they watch to see if we break the rules. Because of that, I should strive to live so Godly that my children and those around me would see that God is real in my life. That I do the things I do, not for an outward show, but that I want to honor God. I should do those things more importantly, because God sees everything. He knows my heart, my thoughts, and my motives.

The second thing I learned from Little Miss Thing this morning is that if we have to break the rules to get the same outcome as someone else....than it's cheating. Just like those seniors...the outcome was Ric falling in nasty water...but what they did to get that outcome was different than the ones who worked hard to hit the target with the ball. The same thing should apply to my life. Nothing in life comes without hard work...nothing I do for Christ comes without putting in some effort. I hope I don't take the shortcuts in life that are offered to me, and I know that they will be. I pray that I would do things the right, God honoring way...even if it takes a little more effort.


Deuteronomy 11:18-20 "Therefore you shall lay up these words of mine in your heart and in your soul, and bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes.
You shall teach them to your children, speaking of them when you sit in your house, when you walk by the way, when you lie down, and when you rise up.
And you shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.



Be careful little eyes what you see

It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings

Be careful little feet where you go

For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

Be careful little ears what you hear

When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near

Be careful little lips what you say

For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

Oh be careful little eyes what see

For the Father up above is looking down in love

Oh be careful little eyes what you see



(words are from Slow Fade by Casting Crowns)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Thank you God....I will never cut my hair again!!



The other day Shelby and I were in the kitchen fixing a snack and she said to me "Mom can you get my hair out of my face?" I began to comb through her hair and then I said to her "Wow Shelby...your hair is finally starting to grow back!" She quickly bowed her head and said
"Thank you God....I will never cut my hair again!"


You see....about 6 months ago Shelby decide to go all Truvey on us (you know...the beautician from Steel Magnolias) and cut her own hair. To say the least....Truvey would not have approved. She completely whacked one side of her hair off...down to the scalp in several spots. I was horrified...she cried....we invested in headbands and hair bows to cover up her obvious mistake. And then we just waited............

I so got tickled the morning that she thanked God for her fast growing hair...it made me laugh that she had been so traumatized over her mishap that she was thanking God for such a silly thing. I then thought about what had transpired in those few minutes and God quickly humbled me and reminded me that we should thank Him for everything...even things that others may find as silly.


You see, to Shelby, her haircut was a major thing that she got in trouble over....and the fact that the hair was growing back covered up the fact that she had messed up...she was putting that day behind her, hopefully to never revisit it again! So she was thanking and praising God for it!


I realized that morning, again, how Great our God is! That even in my mistakes...my mishaps...my sins...that He provides a covering for it. That He takes those sins and He covers them with Christ's Precious Blood, so that I can put those things behind me, hopefully to never revisit them again. So yes, I should thank Him and praise Him for it, especially when other's may find it silly...or to some, even unnecessary! I pray that my heart would be as eager as Shelby's is to thank Him and that I wouldn't look past all the great things He has done in my life!





This is how it feels to be free

This is what it means to know that I am forgiven

This is how it feels to be free
To see that life can be more than I imagined
This is how it feels to be free



Saturday, March 28, 2009

Little Miss Addie Mae





Six years ago today I breathlessly awaited the birth of my little girl. I remember when I found out she was a girl and the excitement that I felt....I was going to have a daughter. I was going to have pink clothes and hair bows, butterflies and flowers.......oh the excitement. I think the thing I was most excited about was getting to have a relationship with a child like the one I had with my mom, and the relationship that my mom had with hers. You see, my moms side of the family had some strong, Godly women in it who truly modeled how to be a great Godly mother. I was stoked to say the least. Don't get me wrong, I love my boys so much (and the fact that they are close to being drama free...except for Charlie on occasion:) ) and wouldn't trade them for anything. There is just something about having daughters that I find so special.

During my pregnancy with Addie I got really sick...I mean really sick. I thought that either I was going to die or she was. I had a fever of 105 degrees for 5 days and the doctors couldn't figure it out. Needless to say I went into severe dehydration and at 24 weeks went into early labor. I remember the doctors scurrying around my room, giving me shots of Terbutaline, throwing monitors on me....I had never seen my Dr panic...but I did that day. Ric and I had a few quiet moments when everyone had left the room and he looked at me and asked "if they can't stop it and she is born...she'll be okay right??" I remember trying to be strong, but with tears streaming down my face...I simply whispered "no, it's too early". I remember Ric praying over me and sweet Addie that day and trying as best as we could to give it to God...not knowing the outcome. God taught me how to trust Him that week...with my life and my kids lives. Eventually the fever went down...the contractions stopped...and I finally breathed a sigh of relief. We had made it through!!

The day Addie was born went off without a hitch. We had our C-section scheduled, ever pink outfit this side of Alabama in her closet, a nursery that we named Blush and Bashful (you know...pink and pink), and a daddy who was literally scared to death to have a little girl. He is so protective of our girls and I love that about him. She was so tiny when she came out and had the biggest brown eyes and the darkest head of hair I had ever seen. She was perfect. I remember smiling and thinking "I have a daughter...a daughter of my very own, to love and nurture." She was so sweet and everyone remarked that she looked like a china doll....even the lady in Yankee Candle asked me weeks later when I had gone to China to get her:)! I loved her from the moment I knew she was in my belly...and seeing her sweet face and fingers and toes made me love her even more. The days that followed Addie's birth were a little stressful to say the least. In the hospital my mom and I noticed that Addie would have these uncontrollable twitches...we kinda brushed them off as being normal, but as the days progressed they got worse and worse. Finally we called our doctor and he referred as to a neurologist. I was so worried that my high fever during pregnancy had caused some neurological damage. He believed that she had a disorder that was called benign neonatal sleep myoclonus...seizures while she slept. If it was that it was something she would outgrow...if it wasn't , then she was having some kind of seizure that we would have to identify. I remember sitting in the doctors office that day and seeing kids that had major neurological issues and knowing that this could be the path that God led our family down. I remember God worked in my heart that day and the weeks surrounding it to remind me that Addie was made just the way He intended for her to be. That she was beautiful in every way because he formed her in my womb and knew every detail about her...even down to the number of hairs on her head. I remember thanking God for Addie, no matter what took place...and then I prayed that I would be the mom she needed me to be. The day we went to the neurologist at Scottish Rite, she decided that we needed to do a sleep study on her to see if that was what it was. The only problem was is that the sleep beds are always booked at Scottish Rite. She gave it a shot...and guess what...there was a bed. By "some strange coincidence" they were empty because that weekend the rooms were getting renovated. I don't call that a coincidence...I call it GOD!! They put over 50 probes on her head to measure her brain waves and then they videoed her sleeping...and I am sure they got footage of me snoring and drooling:) ! They did diagnose her with benign neonatal sleep myoclonus and told us that she would outgrow it in 6 weeks. We praised God when the seizures ceased!!!

God didn't just use those weeks to allow me to mother a little girl...He showed me that He was in control, and nothing I did would change anything. That I had to trust Him with everything. I will ever be grateful for Addie for that. God used that sweet little baby to teach me how to trust Him fully. What a sweet love Addie is. She lights the room up when she walks in and can truly turn my frown upside down. She is sassy...don't get me wrong....but I truly love this little girl. She is a little mommy already and cares for her sister and brother like a seasoned pro. She is loyal as they come and will fight for what she believes. She has a fire in her that I haven't seen in many kids and I pray God will use that.

My prayer is for Addie that she would see what life is truly all about. That God has protected her her whole life... and that He will continue to. That she can truly trust God with the tough things....even life and death. That no matter what the world says about her......God thinks she is beautiful. Most of all, I pray that she would just fall in love with the Lover of her Soul!! You are precious Sweet Addie Mae....a blessing from God Himself! Happy 6th Birthday!

Friday, March 27, 2009

Jesse's Big Day

Jesse Boy









WOW! I can't believe that it has already been one year since this precious child came into my life. I remember the day he was born, the excitement that led up to seeing his face. I wondered who he would look like, how big he would be (cause y'all know I grow 'em big), and if he would be healthy. The moments that followed his birth were so sweet as everyone cooed and talked about how beautiful he was. I laid there on the operating table doing everything I could to catch a quick glimpse of him. I began to hear talk about respiratory rates and that his were extremely high, I got a quick glimpse of him and a quick kiss and he and Ric were gone to recovery. About 30 minutes later they rolled me into recovery where I saw a slightly worried Ric. If anyone knows Ric, you know he doesn't worry....ever!! I could hear them talking about NICU and respiratory therapists and I panicked and honestly don't remember all of it. I had a chance to feed him for about 5 minutes and he was gone to the NICU....what, my baby could be sick.....what is going on? My heart raced, my eyes cried, and my heart was literally breaking inside my chest. No bonding, no loving, no pictures........nothing. He spent about 5 or 6 hours in the NICU as they tried to monitor his rates and figure out what was going on. Our families...especially grandmas.....fretted with me...we know how us ladies over react:). I think Ric had them slip me some good stuff because I remember through all my worrying and fretting...I fell asleep. When I awoke later they told me that they would soon be bringing Jesse to me and I just silently prayed and asked my God to take care of his little body...and I thanked Him for his sweet life. I had tried so desperately to get pregnant with Jesse....even though it was only seven months and I know most women try much longer, it seemed like the longest road to me. Then we he was finally here, to think that he might not be okay was scary to say the least. He came back to me that evening wrapped in the sweetest blanket that some sweet person had made for NICU babies (He still sleeps with this blanket today). I prayed over his sweet body, his lungs so that they would get under control..and I gave that little boy to the Lord.


I pray that God does big things with all of my children. That God would save them at a young age and use them. I want them to be a light in this ever so dark world. I want to see Jesse...the little boy that fought so hard to breathe....to be used of God to share the Breath of Life with a lost and dying world. That is my prayer as this sweet boy turns one.I am beyond blessed. I know that many babies that visit the NICU never come out. That some mommies never get to even see their babies breathe. That some people never even get to have one baby, much less be blessed with four. For that I will ever thank my Father in Heaven that he saw fit for me to raise these children. I pray that I would do it in a way that would honor Him above all else.

I don't care if they are athletic, top of their class, popular, prettiest......none of those things truly matter. What I want them to be is children with a heart for God, that sees a lost world, and will go to all lengths to tell people about Jesus.


Happy Birthday Little Man Jesse.....

Monday, January 12, 2009

"I hate Georgia"






Yes....I know it has been forever since I last posted. I could say that I don't have time...which is kinda true. I could say that I don't have anything to write about....which is not true at all:). I don't know why I haven't written on here. I think that I have been in a funk and just not at all interested in writing...well, I am getting out of that funk! I love to write and have truly missed writing on here...not that anyone reads it, except my sweet husband and occasionally my mom, but I like to write and see what comes out on the screen. I am not overly funny, or gifted, or ...shoot, I don't even use correct grammar 65% of the time! I just like to write!


So today I decided that I am going to blog again and keep track of the great things that are happening in my life and around me.

We had a blessed Christmas this year. We spent time at home and with both sets of grandparents. What fun was had and what loot our kids brought home:) I am seriously going to have to get rid of half our toys just to be able to have somewhere to put the new stuff. We have been so blessed by our families and the way that they pick out the perfect gifts for our children. They loved, and I stress LOVED, every single gift they got. We stayed up too late, layed around too much, ate too much, and laughed too much...perfection! I hated for the end of the break to come. I love my kids being at home....even though they can drive me nuts...I love my home when they are in it. I am already counting down the days until their next break on the 19th.


We didn't see any snow while we were in Virginia and the kids were so disappointed. I may take them to Snow Mountain to go tubing soon. I think they just want to see snow..feel it...lay in it...throw it...and everything else that comes with playing in the snow. Charlie doesn't understand why it never snows in Georgia but that it snows "everywhere else in the world". He didn't like my answer to his question...so he just said...."I hate Georgia" and kicked his foot in the air and walked off. There you have it my friends!