Thursday, August 27, 2009
This week I have struggled...struggled to do the ordinary things...wanted to literally just sit and do nothing...and then I remember I have four kids that have to eat...and if I don't make them brush their teeth, their teeth will fall out...they had to do homework...dirty diapers came...messes were made. So when I just wanted to sit and do nothing...they kinda forced me to get out of my funk and do something.
You see this week, it has been a doozy....I guess I can say that I have been disappointed. Disappointed by things that should not even be on the table. When you feel like the one stable thing in your life...the thing that is never wavering.....begins to become unstable and waver....then I begin to worry....start to fret. I believe there are certain things that we find comfort in...that we rely on and when it gets messed with....well, to say the least...it has shook me to the core.
I will not be specific....no need for that....but what I do know and realize is this...that when the world shifts...when circumstances change...when life throws us a big fat curve ball....that God still remains. That when we can't understand why He is doing something in our lives....when we are at the point where we are struggling to trust Him...that He simply quiets us and reminds us that He is still God....and yes, that He is still in control....and He still knows MY name!
Jesse has gotten to be really talkative....he repeats everything he hears now. I will never forget the day that he started saying "Shelby".....she was amazed at the fact that Jesse knew her name and could say it....and she was stoked that he said her name before he said Charlie and Addie's! Just as Shelby is stoked that Jesse knows her name....how awesome is it that God knows our names....every step...every tear...every thought....Praise God that in the worst of weeks, that I can rely on Him...and Him knowing my name! I came across this song on another blog this week and praised God for his perfect timing. I needed to hear this and now when anyone reads my blog...they will know that He knows their names too! What a mighty God we serve.
I don't know what tomorrow will bring
I can't tell you what's in store
I don't know a lot of things
I don't have all the answers
To the questions of life
But I know in whom I have believed
And He knows my name
Every step that I take
Every move that I make
Every tear that I cry
He knows my name
When I'm overwhelmed by the pain
And can't see the light of day
I know I'll be just fine
'Cause He knows my name
Tiny Truth's for this Thursday~
~ That Jesse can say Shelby's name...and it sounds really cute:)
~ That your kid's teeth will seriously rot out if they aren't told to brush them
~ That I like to use the word fret
~ That He knows my name....when I am overwhelmed by the pain
~ That God's timing is perfect
~ That He still knows my name ....and He knows theirs:
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
We eat icee's.....a lot...
We throw big rocks.......
And put out fires.......
We fix our bikes...and get grease on our pink, nail polished fingers......
We ride on.......
We play peek-a-boo in firetrucks......
We eat more icee's.........
We take pictures of puddles with reflections in them....anybody guess what these reflections are???
We do it all again the next day.......
Friday, August 21, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
And this kiss from little brother was deserved.....
Because of this.......
I hope that the things I write below by no means offend anyone…I am sensitive to the fact that many ladies out there are still waiting on God to give them the little baby that they have prayed for and I cannot fathom how it feels. …with that said, I want to introduce to you a little girl that's parents prayed for , for quite a while. They desired to have a child of their own…to love…nurture…mold…and just to hold. After a few years….and lots of negative pregnancy tests……this little bundle of joy was born. Meet my niece……AVA GRACE SEXTON!!!
She was born yesterday evening and weighed only 6lbs…teeny tiny!! She is gorgeous…perfect…and a grand combination of Tim and Kim…yes their names rhyme! My SIL was a champ and did such an awesome job. I was blessed to be able to see her yesterday, and hold her, and oh….the fever started coming back over me….which Ric quickly stifled! I love babies….just can't help it!
Kim is a woman that I have grown to love…like my sister. She is one of my closest friends and has just been a great aunt to my 4 kiddo's. When she lived near us, she would spend countless days, hours, precious minutes with my family. My kids would scream when she got to our house and cry when she left. I always knew that one day, God was going to make her the greatest Mommy!!!
She had shared with me so many times that she feared that one day she when she got married, that she wouldn't be able to have kids. She had lived a life that by no means was she proud of….before Jesus radically changed her. She was always so unsure of her ability to be able to get pregnant. After God brought Tim into her life and they got married….they soon began trying to get pregnant. And nothing happened. For months…..nothing. She would worry, I would worry…….and then God created a miracle…named Ava Grace. After all that praying…an awesome new medical procedure…and more praying…He and only He…created this little beauty:
As we prayed last night, Shelby was praying first, and she prayed for Ava..and this is what she said "God thank you for cousin Ava….she is so tiny and so cute". Ric and I got so tickled and actually started giggling while she was praying…more so because she later prayed "Lord help us to be "whales" …which she meant "well"…but I liked that she wanted us to be whales!! It was so sweet and sincere…I love the precious gift of life…whether it is in a newborn baby, or one of my children, or the precious elderly couple I visited with yesterday. It reminds me that God and God alone is the Giver of every breath we breathe….
Giver of every breath I breathe
Author of all eternity
Giver of every perfect thing
To You be the glory
Maker of Heaven and of Earth
No one can comprehend Your worth
King over all the universe
To You be the glory
It's all because of Jesus that we are alive….and today I saw that again in a fresh new way. From my sweet child's prayer…to the new baby that I held in my arms. It's all because of HIM! I am pumped for Tim and Kim…and sweet little Ava…to GOD be the Glory for this new life!
Tiny Truth's I learned this Thursday~
~ God is Good
~God is Good
~God is Good
~And Shelby wants us to be whales
1Samuel 1:27 For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition which I asked of Him.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
He even tries to convince me that there are monsters...and that they are "really real"!
Last night in the car coming home from church, he tells me "Mom, there really is a sea monster...people have seen it". I knew he was speaking of the notorious Loch Ness....and I told him that people had said they had seen it in Scotland...that I didn't know if it was real or not....but it was definitely not a monster(even though that is it's name)! At best it was a really big sea creature. He asked me where this said monster lived....was it an ocean? I am not the greatest in remembering facts about certain events..but I answered..."no, I think it's a lake". He sat there really quiet and said "Aw man, I told my friends it was an ocean...that the loch ness monster lived in the ocean." Now, I know my son....he wasn't upset because he was going to look stupid in front of his friends for giving them misinformation about a silly monster. He was upset because in his eyes....he had lied!
Col 3:9 Do not lie to one another, since you have put off the old man with his deeds
Pro 14:5 A faithful witness does not lie, But a false witness will utter lies.
He is a special little boy...that has a sensitive heart. He is sick when he realizes that he has sinned. Sin bothers him(except the sin of fighting with his sisters)!! He knows what is right and what is wrong.
Jam 4:17 Therefore, to him who knows to do good and does not do [it], to him it is sin.
Even as silly as it seems.....the lie he told his friend(which he figured was the truth....why would a sea monster live in a lake)...broke his little heart. He was so quiet the rest of the way home....until we got out of the car and I started throwing rocks at the neighbors dog...Charlie hates when I throw rocks at the neighbors dog. Jesse was throwing them with me...it was quite funny. Back to the story though...he was bothered by his lie...bothered that he had sinned. Just as upset as he was over it...so should I be upset over sin. I pray that sin NEVER becomes comfortable to me...that I do the right thing...and when I do sin...that I am bothered, just as Charlie was...to the point of just not even being able to talk.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Today.....59 years ago, this precious woman was born. Little did her parents know the impact that she would make on the lives of all of those around her.
She grew up and went to the same high school as I did....cheered for the football team....got in fights in the bathroom...you know the regular high school stuff!!She got out of school and married my dad when she was almost 19 years old and proceeded to have three kids in three years......I know, right! Cahrazee! She never missed a school play (shout out to the Lollipop Kids), PTO meeting, sporting event, or anything else for that matter. She was the mom that everybody wanted....the mom that I had. She made me laugh, when I would have rather cried......she cried....when I couldn't laugh.........she loved....and taught me how to love!!
She is an awesome lady, this woman I call MOM!
About 10 years ago my grandfather died unexpectedly. We knew that Mama couldn't be on her own....so my Mom brought her home, made a room in her house.....and loved her Mom...just like she had always loved us. When she could no longer care for Mama....she made the dreaded decision to place her in a nursing home.......Mama had so many needs and needed around the clock nursing care. Mom would go and sit with her for hours and feed her, talk to her, sing to her.....sometimes she just sat. She was as devoted to Mama as she always was to us. I was with her the day Mama went to be with the Lord....she answered the phone around 6:30 in the morning and we just knew what the call was. She got off the phone.......and just wept. Wept because her best friend was gone....the lady that hadn't talked back in over a year.....was no longer there to listen. Wept because she would no longer hold her hand....feed her lunch.....tell her stories......and she wept with tears of joy because she knew that Mama was no longer in pain...no longer trapped in her own body.....she was free....she was with Jesus! That morning I watched her go through the pain that she had been preparing for, and she was a rock....just like she is in every situation life throws at her....and there have been lots.
I learned a lot from my mom during those years with Mama, and I will be forever grateful for it. I learned how to love someone...with no conditions. I learned how to treat your elders with the Respect that they deserve. I learned to make sacrifices for the people you love. I learned that the only way to get through hard times....is just trust the Father!
As we sat at Mama's funeral on that snowy, February afternoon....my mom sang along to the words of "I can only Imagine"....and the whole time she sang...she imagined Mama...standing before her Savior! I know that one day my Mom will do the same......and I can only imagine what it will be like when she will hear those precious words "Well done my good and faithful servant". She has left a legacy that will continue on for generations....a legacy of faith and love and laughter. And this my friends, is one of her legacies:
She is my Mom...my best friend.....my hero!
Happy Birthday Mom...hope you aren't made I told people you are 59:)....but you look 40!!!! I love you!